Monday, September 15, 2008

*reflections on teaching* 6th year

VI.
Don’t Lick the Mushrooms
sixth year

I run into them almost everywhere I go. One of the Brookes walks out the door ahead of me at Meijer, Makaila sticks her hand out the window of a passing bus, Joe saunters by with Grandma at the park, Wyatt B., Holly, and Kayla stalk my house, befriending the cat. That year, my sixth year, I finally had the perfect class. The class with a personality that complemented my own. The Wyatts, Kayla, Kyle, the Brookes, Seth, and Tim. It was the first year I really felt able to let my whole personality shine through the teacher persona, because these kids didn’t take advantage of it.

I knew this class would be special two weeks in, on the first field trip of the year. We packed ourselves onto the bus and headed for a nature center about a half an hour away. The friendly staff took us on a nature hike to look at trees. Were these kids concerned about trees? Nope, they were obsessed with mushrooms. Now, I have to admit, there were some really vibrant, beautiful mushrooms in those woods, but these kids took mushroom hunting to a whole new place.
“Miss L! Look at that big yellow mushroom!! I think it’s poisonous!!” they hollered.
“Well, were you planning on licking it?”
“Eeew, no!”
“Well, then, let’s not worry about it,” I stated calmly, thinking that would be the end of it.
Not more than ten minutes later, I heard Kyle yell from the front of the line, “AH! There’s a big mushroom! It might be poisonous! Nobody lick it!!”

They weren’t the brightest kids I’ve ever taught. Most of them were of average intelligence, really. After two weeks of studying for a geography test entitled “Where Am I?” many of these kids failed miserably. But they were the most entertaining answers of any test I’ve ever given.
“What hemisphere do you live in?”
“Shape,” came the confident reply.
“What continent do you live on?”
“The lower peninsula,” they hazarded.
“What galaxy do you live in?”
“2006, of course.”
“What country do you live in?”
The prizewinning answer to this question was delivered by Mr. Mitch. What country does he live in? Mitchigan. Must be nice having your own country.

They were horrible at tests, and the common sense gene had missed some of them entirely. One confused child spoke with me one day about a broken pencil lead. She just didn’t know what to do until I pointed out that our generous Parent Teacher Organization had bought an electric pencil sharpener for our classroom. Brookie H. wondered why she wasn’t allowed to add something to her penpal letter five days after the due date. After I explained that those letters were on their way to Massachusetts, she looked at me with a wrinkled brow and said, “But I forgot to put the picture in. I need to put the picture in.” Makaila decided to wear strappy, four-inch, hooker heels to complete her Halloween costume. A glance at her feet after the half-hour long costume parade downtown revealed blood. I guessed her ears weren’t working when I gave my yearly teacher speech about wearing walking shoes for the parade.

This was the year I began to see that besides amazing health insurance, teaching also has a lot to offer in the way of entertainment value.
They volunteered to have themselves laminated.
They christened my black faux leather sandals the “lalligator sandals.” Their reasoning? They aren’t leather, but they look like alligator skin, therefore they are the lalligators.
Krysta folded every assignment into an accordion.
They humored me and played games purely for my entertainment. The Christmas party that year found them helping each other put thick, winter mittens on before attempting to unwrap a package sealed shut with heavy-duty packing tape.
They joked about me torturing them, but I think they secretly enjoyed our daily running games. Army/Navy tag, complete with last minute switches, aircraft carriers, and rowboats became our game of choice.

Those little things paled in comparison to their largest invention of the school year. They invented a high school boyfriend for me. They found it unbelievable that there was no man in my life and were curious about my dating past. When they learned I’d had no boyfriend during high school, they didn’t believe me. And so, they created Ben.

It all began when one of the Wyatts was having computer trouble. I was bent over the screen, trying to coax the problem out when James wandered up to turn in his assignment. On his way back to his seat, he meandered by the computer where I was working and said, “So, Miss L, tell me about Ben.”
I was only half listening to him, and confusedly said, “Ben Youngs, from across the hall? What happened to him?”
“No, not Ben Youngs,” he said, as if that were the most ridiculous thing he’d heard all day. “Your high school boyfriend Ben. Tell me about him.”
“What’s wrong with you? Are you a crackhead?” I said without thinking.
James hit the floor, shaking with laughter as I cringed at the thought of what I’d just said. I caught him alone later in the day and apologized, asking if I’d hurt his feelings. His response was, “Seriously, Miss L? I thought that was completely hilarious.” Any other class, a slip like that would have meant at least a fifteen minute calm down period, and probably a phone call from concerned parents. But not these kids.

That was just the beginning. As the year wore on, Ben continued to be treated as a real person, although he felt to me like an imaginary friend. They often greeted him when they came in the door at the beginning of the day and they waved to him while I was reading our class novel. My brow often furrowed as Sethie, or Joshie, or Krysta would walk up to my desk with a huge toothy grin. I would look up, ready to assist them in whatever way I could, only to see them do the “Hi, Mom” wave and say, “Hi Ben! How’s it going, Ben? Are you having a good day, Ben?” I would roll my eyes, turning back to the task at hand.
“Aw, Ben, is she ignoring you, Ben? I’m so sorry, Ben.”
“Don’t you have something to be working on? I think it’s due in about three minutes,” I’d warn.
“What’s that, Ben? You’re going to talk her into not collecting this assignment? Aw, Ben, you’re the best!” They would traipse off, happy to complete their work after their brief interlude with Ben.

Little did they know, I’d have the chance to return the favor. When I let it slip in March that I had spent the last weekend visiting my new boyfriend, my real boyfriend, their curiosity immediately spun out of control. On a walk down to the park, they flung questions at me.
“So where does your boyfriend live?”
“Somewhere.”
“No, seriously, where does he live?”
“In Boringville.”
“That’s not a real place! Well, if you’re not telling us where he lives, at least tell us what his name is.”
“Eggbert.”
“No, it’s not! Tell us his name!”
“Ok, if you guess the right name, I’ll tell you.”
“That’s not fair, there’s like a million names.”
“Then if you want to know you’d better start guessing.”
The torture continued for days, but eventually I shared the details with them. Their comment? “Your boyfriend is from Detroit and he lets you walk around with that old crappy cell phone?”

The year ended too soon for me. For the first time, I shed tears on the last day of school. We had enjoyed each other’s stories, successes, and quirks. We knew that Brookie P. loved frogs and Wyatt M. was the go-to guy for pet questions. We knew Joe had a bizarre sense of humor, Emily could organize anything, and Holly sometimes didn’t smell so good, and that was alright.

As a teacher, I’m blessed to have these kids in my life. They became a living reminder to me of the joys of my calling. They were the hot fudge sundae at the end of a five year liver and onions meal, coming along at just the right time to keep me dining for at least another six years.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

*Reflections on Teaching* 5th year

I just finished this today during writer's workshop. I read the last part to this class, and they wanted to tell me stories about the times when this has happened to them. Maybe you'll have a story at the end, as well! :o)

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V.
Decisions
fifth year


I hate to confess it. My fifth year of teaching is a hazy, fuzzy memory. I know I had an average group of kids, I know we went on some field trips, read some books, and had some fun together. I know I had a few stinkers. Alex, who liked to think he could pick and choose what he was or wasn’t going to do; Cody, the hyper ADHD child who acted before thinking; Robert, angry from a divorce, who sobbed when he had to call both parents and tell them he’d deliberately taken a third-graders glove and flushed it down a toilet. But really, those kids were nothing compared with the spirit-crushing previous year.

The only incident from that year that really sticks out in my mind began on one of those mornings when I couldn’t decide. Was I sick, or just tired? Should I haul my worn out self into my classroom and write lesson plans for a sub, or just suffer through the day? When the lightheadedness began, I decided a sub was the way to go. I made the phone call, threw my hair in a ponytail, and headed off in my pajamas to school.

Sometimes it’s just easier to go to school sick than it is to go through the hassle of writing sub plans. The lunch count needs to be done by 8:15, Andy can take care of that for you. Don’t mark Rachel absent, she doesn’t attend school here anymore. Students have lists of partners in their desks, don’t let them just choose their own or Cody and Alex will beeline towards each other. Make sure you don’t let those two wind up working with each other. The schedule says lunch is at 12:05, but you have to start lining them up at 12:00 so they have enough time. Walk them to gym, make sure to check that the gym teacher is actually in the gym before you leave them there. Have Johanna pass out this packet of papers to go home, but don’t let her do it more than five minutes before the bell rings or they’ll lose them before they leave the room.

Teachers do so much during the day without thinking; verbalizing it for another adult is almost impossible. So, we write the plans, usually not knowing what that early morning phone call will bring us. It could be a retired teacher, who knows all the tricks of the trade and will have those kids behaving better than you do. Or it could be a frazzled, burned-out hippie, who wants children to be free to express themselves. Lesson plans, who needs lesson plans?

On this particular day, my sub would be a familiar face. A local, she’d been in my room before. She wasn’t my favorite sub, but she wasn’t the worst either. She could be mean-spirited with the kids, but she followed the lesson plans and left good notes. I wrote the plans, straggled back home, and poured myself back into bed, thankful for the coziness.

The phone call came at about 3:30 that day. I had made it to the couch by then, Vernors and soda crackers in hand, so when I heard my partner teacher’s voice I was partially lucid.
“Gina, I am so sorry to bother you, but I needed to give you a heads up.”
“Ok,” I croaked.
“You may be getting some phone calls tonight.”
“Seriously?” I asked.
“Yeah,” she continued, “Mrs. Smith brought up thong underwear in social studies class today.”
“Huh? She what? Thongs?”
“Uh-huh. Apparently the lesson was on Pursuit of Happiness?”
“Yeah, but I didn’t leave anything about thongs.”
“Yeah, well, she took it upon herself to give an additional example of pursuing happiness. I think the exact quote was ‘You have the right to wear thong underwear, even if you have a big fat butt and no one wants to see it.’”
“No,” I gasped. “Why – what – why would you do that?”
“I don’t know, I couldn’t figure it out either. The kids were very disturbed. I’ll let you go, but I didn’t want you to be caught off guard if a parent called you tonight. I let the principal know already.”
“Thanks, Dawn,” I answered as I hung up the phone.

Thong underwear. Fifth graders. These were two concepts that shouldn’t go together. This woman had children. Would she want her kids spoken to like that in school? “Well,” I thought, “there’s another sub who’s not allowed to be in my room anymore.”

She was in good company. There was the man who let the kids run wild. A woman who left a note saying no one misbehaved and everything was fine. I found out later the kids had thrown books out the second story window on her watch. Another woman was unable to show the video I’d left because she couldn’t locate the enormous, thirty-inch television strapped on the cupboard directly behind my desk. She didn’t bother to ask the kids the location of the TV, either. Another sub informed me that she had helped me out by not using the plans I’d left. Instead, she told my fifth graders a ninety minute story about Bobo the Duck, then let them color. Now that must have been an educationally valuable day.

Maybe I shouldn’t care so much. After all, one bad day probably won’t destroy these children, or their education. They’ll recover. But even though I know that, these thoughts still run through my head when I wake up with an achy tickle in the back of my throat, or after I’ve spent the night running from bed to bathroom and back again. Yet, I do care, and I know that the next time I watch the numbers on the thermometer rise above 100 degrees, I’ll find my slippers and shuffle off to school to write detailed lesson plans for whatever the luck of the draw brings me that day.